thoughts from vbs

VBS ended today. I got home just past three and fell asleep listening to Steven Curtis Chapman's audio book Between Heaven and the Real World (it is fantastic). I created a free audible trial account just to access it - nearing the end now and I wish I could add it to an audio library or something :'( also I discovered his sons' band Colony House & wow I haven't cared much for a band since Bombay Bicycle Club days but I really like their music AND their music videos! Tbh I think the drummer is the key to why they sound so good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJgle1V0Xrg&list=RD47iAwOy__UA&index=2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PcoIbdT6n9I&list=OLAK5uy_m4bRPxkY8DPBANgHlFOsKq1CfW1VuItZs&index=3

been so blessed by their family this month through the book and a glimpse into their relationships with God.

Before the Steven Curtis Chapman book I was reading the Viking Quest series, it's a set of five children's books that mum read to us when we were little, about an Irish girl, Bree, and her brother, Devin, who get kidnapped by Viking raiders. I usually avoid ebooks, but I borrowed the entire series from the nlb collection! I really appreciate how my job has taught me to make good use these great free resources.

<so strange I feel like my voice is changing>
<my typing my way of speaking, it's been vetted>
<trimmed into new lines by her>
<over a year of routine>
<so if this is me now, why does it feel strange to write?>
<an increased sense of censorship>
<on lines of my own making>
<but if I recreate them>
<who is really doing the changing?>
<yet if I leave things uncut and raw>
<those too, don't sit well>
<rhyme and resolve, when will you return>
<I want to write something and not squirm>

I looked back at a few of my recent past blog posts. It's funny I cant seem to be patient enough to write coherent things most of the time HAHAHA. I guess this space is a strange place that's why? I've used it to just write for remembering, little Ebeneezers to mark things. I've also used it as a landing pad for all kinds of thoughts and feelings that couldn't come out right elsewhere. I did use it at times to write properly, like a smattering of poems that I edited, and some posts where I was thinking about talks I'd heard, or nicer reads about my life.

I really like writing but I feel I'm out of touch, hopefully I'll get back into it and write more :)