Honesty in performance, pride in service

Jesus Predicts His Death

21 From that time on Jesus began to explain to his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things at the hands of the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life.

Element - gospel

22 Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. “Never, Lord!” he said. “This shall never happen to you!”

Element - fear 

23 Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

Element - ungodliness

24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 25 For whoever wants to save their life[f] will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. 26 What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?

Element - two ways to live

 27 For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.

Element - judgement

Another lesson in doing the right thing. How could it come any way other than experience

lawlessness

thoughts that sum up this weeks state of affairs

https://www.stuff.co.nz/sport/tennis/107109630/officials-are-scared-veteran-tennis-official-seething-over-serena-williams-spat

http://www.tennis.com/pro-game/2018/09/carlos-ramos-correct-us-open-final-serena-williams-naomi-osaka-controversy/76919/

and here's the context

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dVcJg6AyS8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCm3BemDlj8

my heart goes out to Ramos and Osaka. Serena, I still respect you as a tennis player. Please speak for women in a way that is right, when it is right.

[21:43, 9/15/2018] Hannah: i was like crying
[21:43, 9/15/2018] Hannah: 1) so proud to see osaka win
[21:43, 9/15/2018] Hannah: 2) so moving to see serena push
[21:44, 9/15/2018] Hannah: 3) so disappointing to hear the way serena talked to the chair umpire (for the record I really respect this umpire and serena but this is not how tennis is meant to be)
[21:45, 9/15/2018] Hannah: 4) also disappointing that the tournament umpire (the "officials" who ran onto court when she disagreed with the chair umpire docking her a game point) did not overrule the chair umpires call. I think the chair umpire was right to give serena a warning like that for the way she was speaking to him. But given the stakes in the match, it would have be wiser for the officials to overrule it.
[21:46, 9/15/2018] Hannah: 5) shocked she was docked a game point at 4-3 in the second set so crazy
[21:49, 9/15/2018] Hannah: 6) Disappointed that she tried to spin this into a women's rights thing
[21:53, 9/15/2018] Hannah: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irEIoJEM6bU
[21:53, 9/15/2018] Hannah: this is what makes me proud of my sport :)

confidence

I guess the real question is
do i want to become like AS
or like JC

and I already know the answer
Plus the HS is working it out
in me

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!
Praise Him all creatures here below
Praise Him above ye heavenly host
Praise F, S + Holy Ghost

:)

4-6 weeks to think of my next steps?
stick close to Jesus
sleep sound in Jesus
listen hard for Jesus
all will be well

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RV-6qbUHVww

stick close to the angels

The Baptism of Jesus

9 In those days Jesus came from Nazareth of Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan. 10 And when he came up out of the water, immediately he saw the heavens being torn open and the Spirit descending on him like a dove. 11 And a voice came from heaven, “You are my beloved Son;[d] with you I am well pleased.”

The Temptation of Jesus

12 The Spirit immediately drove him out into the wilderness. 13 And he was in the wilderness forty days, being tempted by Satan. And he was with the wild animals, and the angels were ministering to him.

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anyway

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Arthur Kleinman's recommended reading is enlightening. It was written in 1890.

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I like this part:

If habits are due to the plasticity of materials to outward agents, we can immediately see to what outward influences, if to any, the brain-matter is plastic. Not to mechanical pressures, not to thermal changes, not to any of the forces to which all the other organs of the body are exposed; for nature has carefully shut up our brain and spinal cord in bony boxes, where no influences of this sort can get at them. She has floated them in fluid so that only the severest shocks can give them a concussion, and blanketed and wrapped them about in an altogether exceptional way. The only impressions that can be made upon them are through the blood, on the one hand, and through the sensory nerve-roots, on the other; and it is to the infinitely attenuated currents that pour in through these latter channels that the hemispherical cortex shows itself to be so peculiarly susceptible. The currents, once in, must find a way out. In getting out they leave their traces in the paths which they take. The only thing the can do, in short, is the deepen old paths or to make new ones; and the whole plasticity of the brain sums itself up in two words when we call it an organ in which currents pouring in from the sense-organs make with extreme facility paths which do not easily disappear. For, of course, a simple habit, like every other nervous event - the habit of snuffling, for example, or of putting one's hands into one's pockets, or of biting one's nails - is, mechanically, nothing but a reflex discharge; and its anatomical substratum must be a path in the system. The most complex habits, as we shall presently see more fully, are, from the same point of view, nothing but concentrated discharges in the nerve-centres, due to the presence there of systems of reflex paths, so organized as to wake each other up successively - the impression produced by one muscular contraction serving as a stimulus to provoke the next, until a final impression inhibits the process and closes the chain. The only difficult mechanical problem is to explain the formation de novo of a simple reflex or path in a pre-existing nervous system. Here, as in so many other cases, it is only the premier pas qui coute. 

premier pas qui coûte
: it is only the first step that costs: only the beginning is difficult

shopping/ wishing / stopping

https://www.10ofthose.com/products/17564/humility-audio-book [liz]

https://www.10ofthose.com/products/12597/disciplines-of-a-godly-woman

https://www.10ofthose.com/products/23873/i-am

sad
sad
sad

sigh.

https://www.10ofthose.com/products/20453/chequebook-of-the-bank-of

https://www.10ofthose.com/products/21457/a-chance-to-die

calling

where in the world
is the word
vocation
used nowadays?

is it like the german system of apprenticeship?

"In many societies in Southeast Asia, contra Weber, professionalization has thus not necessarily entailed a withdrawal from state and power; on the contrary, vocational professionals are more frequently socially oriented. Doctors who move to dabble in politics often find the transition from one to the other is never really complete; their politics and medical practice are rarely mutually exclusive.
The nature of their training no doubt played a role, too. Early generations of indigenous doctors, like lawyers, were highly educated, and occupy an important social strata as a professional nationalist intelligentsia. They were mobile subjects, often educated abroad and exposed to many different forms of government, social systems and ideological influences; yet the medical training they received disposed them to view their sociopolitical environment as a subjective plurality through which ran the rational, objective truth of modern science" p.2-3 (bold mine)

https://www.academia.edu/2976472/Healing_the_Nation_Politics_Medicine_and_Analogies_of_Health_in_Southeast_Asia_version_1.0_

Learnin journeyin

But in the costly wounds of love
At the cross

[11/05, 19:46] Hannah: As she was drawing me I was painting a sunflower on the other side of the lantern. But I still heard  describe my portrait, and she said "let's add a halo because she's a goody two shoes" to which I remarked "that's nice" sarcastically and kept painting.

Reminds me of me when I see the world critically and keep my tongue unchecked. Then the tongue is like a whip or a chord that lashes out and cuts sharply into those it judges. Thank God He is our great redeemer, healer and friend. Words will never kill me and what a tears but a little drop of rain 😊😂🍃🙏🏼💪💪🏿❤💩💞🍃🍃🍃🍃🍃🍃🍃🍃🙆🏻‍♀

[11/05, 19:53] Hannah: In other news, I had a lovely conversation in Chinese with our taxi driver to shifen (the place you light the lanterns) about Jesus 😍 and fo jiao (Buddhism) it was lovely and life giving! And very interesting insights into the way he viewed Christianity (I think mainly through Western countries as proxies for Christian values/ "philosophy") he made a comment, "that's why fo jiao countries will always be poor, because they are helping others" in comparison to Christinaity which intervenes like America. But he had never read the bible for himself and didn't know Jesus claims to be God. He thinks Jesus is a teacher to lead you on the path to God just like Buddah is. But he took my point that only a sinless person can take the sins of a sinful person. And if Buddha is sinless then he isn't human - all humans sin. And I enjoyed, as always, the bundles of truth and wisdom that come rolling in with Chinese values. It's just always impossible to get a word in hahaha but thank goodness I have learnt the art of mmm-ing and am growing in my joy of listening. And one of the last things religious related I said was 绅是爱 and he concurred. May God have mercy and bless him. Jess was just happy because after all that he decided to give us a discount haha

thank you kay redfield jamison, marcia inhorn and arthur kleinman // he said she said

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPxrZg9XeF0

I really like Jon Foreman's music because it's just so real. 

Today I had a chat with Arthur Kleinman, he is the kindest yet wise and sharpest "old" scholar I know. I so grateful to God - he is really sending me all his angels in this time of senselessness. 

He gave me good advice. 
1) Avoid being alone he said
2) Wake up at 6.30 he said
3) Do a 30-45 minutes "energy burner" in the morning (e.g. yoga/ tai chi/ lift weights whatever) It just has to be systematic. I like morning walks and sometimes jogs and yoga!
4) Keep a regular, good diet. Sit down with a nutritionist and work out a systematic diet.
5) Read an unquiet mind (I'd already read it); read Kay Jamison's biography of Robert Lowell, he had manic depression disorder too. I am "genetically programmed to be creative", he said
6) read a chapter by William James in his Principles of Psychology, just the chapter on habits; why habits are crucial
7) Stay on lithium. Stay on it. And go for regular blood tests.

Writing point 7 just now cut my heart a bit. I still don't understand God why. Why? But I trust you. And I trust my doctor. Thank you - for giving me all the people I need for the moment. And for the future - it scares me. But I know you will be with me always. I will be ok! 

2 songs I'm listening to right now,

I'm holding on to you
And I won't let go
You're the one that I can't loose
And I won't let go
You're the only thing that's true
In this whole world of black eyed blues
And disillusioned points of view
And I won't let go
The pain feels like a knife
But I'm not giving up on life

and 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrSJwO5dJXg 

I will only sing your praise. 

Professor Kleinman also kindly advised me to "take a reasonable period of time (4-6 weeks) to think about what the next step in your life will be" 
And while I'm doing that to think about 
/ friends / 
stable relationship. 

Don't live in a fantasy world
Discipline my thoughts
Don't invalid myself.

whispers 欧服 summer

I澳门having送么troublewith没有可以board

our love is like a song we can't forget it/ thank you for saving me/ over and over again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaTYbUugDYU

Joni's desiringGod article  = real worlds of wisdom

haha "worlds of wisdom"
 i meant words of wisdom, but that works too...actually probably makes more sense metaphorically ;)

She needs to be taken literally by my generation...ah the folly of youth. foolish foolish foolish young people!

someone needs her book...who could it be? R.

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/beware-of-running-too-hard

resurrection letters...they make me cry.

Free to go

Jesus answered, "I told you that I am he. So, if you seek me, let these men go." (John 18:8)

If you died that I might live
I needn't labour to make sure
There is no work that I could do
Strong enough to raise the dead

"This was to fulfil the word that he had spoken: "Of those whom you gave me I have lost not one." (18:9)

Your love will not let me go
Lord take me back...
Let my humility run deep
Empty me of what I am!
Father I am in your hands
Show me how I fit into your kingdom plan
Every step, when I don't understand
I trust you x

hypocrisy of the SJW

4 But one of his disciples, Judas Iscariot, who was later to betray him,objected, 5 “Why wasn’t this perfume sold and the money given to the poor? It was worth a year’s wages.[b]” 6 He did not say this because he cared about the poor but because he was a thief; as keeper of the money bag, he used to help himself to what was put into it.

7 “Leave her alone,” Jesus replied. “It was intended that she should save this perfume for the day of my burial. 8 You will always have the poor among you,[c] but you will not always have me.”

9 Meanwhile a large crowd of Jews found out that Jesus was there and came, not only because of him but also to see Lazarus, whom he had raised from the dead. 10 So the chief priests made plans to kill Lazarus as well, 11 for on account of him many of the Jews were going over to Jesus and believing in him.

Father

I'm so spent

Why does my heart care

So damn much

Why do I feel

So stupidly strong

About what is right

And what is wrong

Is this worldly condemnation

Is this how it's supposed to be?

Is this carrying my cross

Will this last - eternally?

Oh look to the ant you sluggard!

Then weep at your sin

And look to the cross

I must become less

Trusting you, You will become more

Because You Are. 

All that's fair and true and worth fighting for

You are the Truth

Only You truly set us free

So what they are seeking

What we all crave

Is to be with you

But where are you now?

In better public systems?

In romantic relationships?

Fun? Travelling? "Giving back"

You tell us where you are, 

and so you have. 

15“If you love me, keep my commands. 16And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be^c in you.18I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.” John 14:15-21

https://www.gotquestions.org/body-of-Christ.html 

What a comfort to know, I am in you and you in me. 

:)

Lonely no more :)

:)

I have calmed and quieted my soul

Like a weaned child with its mother

Like a weaned child is my soul within me

Psalm 131 on that dangerous road to Jerusalem for the festivals 

O Lord, my heart is not lifted up;

    my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
    too great and too marvelous for me.
2 But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
    like a weaned child with its mother;
    like a weaned child is my soul within me.

3 O Israel, hope in the Lord
    from this time forth and forevermore.

Sometimes I don't know what to believe

I wish

So many things
Then get discouraged and disappointed
For wishing
That those I think of as closest to me could be
Things they just cannot be
 things that I can't expect them to be.

Stop building idols in people
Stop looking to people for hope
Jesus is the only true Savior.
No one else has the power necessary to rescue from the pit.

Thank God for God.
I'll keep praying for support.

https://www.christianitytoday.com/women/2016/june/living-with-bipolar-disorder-mental-illness-depression.html

books :') time to be quiet now. and read books.

“Accept that there are things in this world we can never explain and life will be understandable. That is the irony of life. It is also the beauty of it.” 
― Tan Twan Eng, The Gift of Rain

“Never meet a person’s anger directly. Deflect, distract him, even agree with him. Unbalance his mind, and you can lead him anywhere you want.” 
― Tan Twan Eng, The Gift Of Rain

“Accept that there are things in this world we can never explain and life will be understandable. That is the irony of life. It is also the beauty of it.” 
― Tan Twan Eng, The Gift of Rain

seeking the light/not willing to be blind/stop saying relax...it leads to death

Emily Martin - Bipolar Expeditions: Mania and Depression in American Culture 

From 12.10-15.11

I've come up with this phrase, living under the description of bipolar disorder as a way of dealing with the question that I get all the time:is bipolar disorder biological (is it a biological condition) or is it culturally constructed...my opinion about this is that everything human is both biological and culturally constructed and it is probably a fool's errand to try and tease the two apart in any definitive way. 

So the phrase is meant to resist the apparent necessity of such a choice (this or that) - to reject the choice and to say that both sides of this apparent dichotomy are real,  both are material, both are symbolic and both are filled with the ability or desire to imagine the world.

I worry that talking about bipolar disorder as culturally constructed might led one to ignore the very real material effects of this diagnosis - this and any diagnosis, especially psychiatric ones. A psychiatric diagnosis is a material fact. If you get one and it's a major one it has immediate material effects on employment, insurance, on life expectancy, admission to all kinds of contexts. So it's not culturally constructed exactly, do you understand what I'm saying? It's real, it has material effects. 

I won't transcribe the rest but it's very helpful, a tree metaphor to say that though different people/cultures may describe one thing in different ways, it's still a real thing and it's still the same thing.

Another good point about how though when a loved one gets bipolar it can seem like their whole person goes with them, it's not true. They don't morph from A to B - that's crazy! They. are. not. a. bipolar. THING. Bipolar just becomes one part of their experience; true, a very big part at times but not all-encompassing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67QCOpk6EgE

http://www.thelancet.com/pdfs/journals/lancet/PIIS0140-6736(08)60152-X.pdf

:'( ... ok

sad. do i mess everything up.

nope! silly head talking.

being a sinner doesnt mean you ARE sin - im not the root cause of everyone's life problems. that's pretty great tbh that means i dont have to feel INDEBTED to saving n helping everyone. pick up yo own rubbish.

but i can pray for the world :)  #prayingfortheworld :) :) :)

i will trust in you Father. Keep my head in YOUR book. Not in the clouds, not in the books. Ah school...the problem and solution. cries. 

Kanchong spiders/ look to the sky!

We are what we look up to.

The card from esra/jonah don't run

When I'm tired,
    my mind is a mess
Distractions attraction
Its reason posses

Lord speak, I can't hear you
I'd gone in too deep
Inside the tunnel
What can I see?

So on I keep going
Not knowing which way
Only hope of some future,
though faint, keeps me sane

Pictures of people
Who've loved me and loved me and loved me
Again
Despite my wild thrashing
Reeling me in

Please
Come
Home

The words of my heart
And through tears you save me
You broke me apart

I cannot hurt them
So I'll let them hurt me
My eyes on the light
I know I'll live
Eternally

You know my fears Father
Better than I could ever say

What happens when my parents die?
What happens if everything I ever was goes away?

You say,
Don't be afraid
My love is stronger
My love is stronger than your fears

And anyway
that's not the point of living ;)
To be safe
And happy

Knowing God, YHWH glorious
Perfect in every way
Abounding in mercy and love
Washed all my sins away

And to serve King Jesus
Best ruler and friend there could ever be :)
That is Life!
Abundantly!

So I won't be afraid
Your love is stronger
And You have promised
Promised to be always near

With us in the battle

Thought: Maybe God took me to New Zealnand to keep me away from the trigger happy season of christmas/new year.

So despite all my anger and complaining, it was for my own good - he was saving me from myself! #doyoudowelltobeangry

Observation: Very chatty with A over dinner at maki san tonight. Thankfully she reminded me not everyone thinks like me. Twice 😂. And she's very gracious :'( I am so idiotic sometimes.

I talk too much when I'm nervous and fearful that something I don't want to happen will happen. I try to prevent it with my words?

Lesson: Trust up ur Father. And your sisters and your brothers. Christ died for us all and we all have his spirit working in us :) oh please will I remember this!!

Listening to: shane and shane psalm 46/ elevation worship come to the altar

Jumanji

Thoughts from jumanji

You have to fight for what you love. Maybe my past fan girl forays into calvinism creates a false sense that things happen by magic. Sit, back, relax and enjoy the show. But hey, God fights for us! And we must fight to stand firm in the gospel, fight to love, fight so others can live. Laziness perhaps is a out pour of a fatalistic worldview. No more que sera sera! Take action - prayerfully ;)

"You are braveheart...you have to choose who you want to be!"

"Then lets be like this, everyday...in the real world. Just come home."

I liked the character bethany for being nice to martha. When she said you're a babe own it I thought that was a great compliment. Genuine and in real time language because she meant it. Things to learn from because being encouraging is encouraging.

Last thing - hanging out with R and C for two weeks involved going to the cinema four times (star wars, breathe, murder on the orient express, jumanji). It's been great! Even though my snobby ass would usually think twice about spending $ on 3/5 star movies it's been a great way to bond and connect with my cousins. And from their reactions understand their worlds a bit more :)

jeremiah 31

maybe i should keep more of a record.

10 days in nz: 28-7 *note we arrived at the house at 9pm on the 28th

i noticed my body was exhausted during the travel from sg to nz. knocked out for 2 hours on the floor of auckland airport., slept the whole auckland to nelson flight. i think i really hadn't had enough time to rest, christmas had also pushed me up - esp christmas day. and helping the family on the SQ flight too. so i think i was already functioning on an energy deficit but with lingering manic "gifts" it seems - felt like i was floating/special powers/all seeing eye (but not manic!) 30/31

2 nights sleep difficulties (prob 3ams) - after star wars, can't remember the second. woke up suddenly at 5/530 I think 4/1.

High stress/manic walking through the woods thinking about nms job Friday 5/1.

Angry, random from 2/3, more consistent from 4/5/6. Triggers: mother. sarah. (very angry 6/7) hating myself for being angry and hurting mum and not knowing how to explain it. :( :( :(
this reminds me of idk
family holiday shouting in Scotland after Ben Nevis depression. texting val, looking out of the cars at the mountains. madness at dad for forgetting me in paris and going on without me.

im glad my body is exhausted tonight and all this emotion is finally coming OUT in tears. i hope it all comes out so there's no more hate left to poke people with. ugh
ugh
ugh

looked up my ativan to see if it might help but i dont think so. just really want to go home.

feeling a bit trapped.
need my own space.

escape into praying and singing...that's what i did at the beach today actually, and that was good. and escaped into the sea - that was lovely. jumping in the waves :) until i almost died hahahahaha

but that was good; being outdoors, doing activities, being together doing things but not talking. yea. beach cricket was fun.

ok, important things to keep in mind for the next few days.

sleep
eat
exercise (go for runs in the morning/play badminton with connie)
do work in the morning, with breaks after 1-2 hours.
schedule.
email doctor tay about meds if necessary

:)
you got this!

kiv
google workshops for parents with children with bipolar - when will you educate yourself!

Everlasting Arms

Some new year reflections

3 pieces of advice

1)      Keep working – Nathan Tang 13 August 2017

Let’s keep working but no pressure cause God is the One working

2)      Well I learnt to let go. And not hoard all these “responsibilities” to myself, like as if they were my “pet projects”. They are my fellow bro & sistas. We share 2 common DNAs. Sin & Christ. – Samuel Ngo 24 December 2017

3)      Continue serving and following Christ as always – Christopher Kho 26 December 2017

And don’t worry too much about being the lone 94’ there/ I’m sure there’ll be more gospel partners coming soon 21 December 2017

3 wise sayings

1) you can learn to love anyone when you've heard their story - Simren Singh, ages ago, recalled December 2017 

2) how can you expect it to look out for you? The strong must take care of the weak - Heidi Leong, Esra and the chick story, December 2017

3) tidak perlu lebih tinggi tinggi, harus bantu orang lain - me to the man on the plane, December 28 2017

Some thoughts,

God cares about where we are. He moves us to spaces where we need to be to help us know him. 

Acts 17:26-28 From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us. ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’ As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’

Following the leading of the Spirit makes zero sense sometimes because you're following something no one can see.  

John 3:8 The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”

Training children is super hard because its a 24/7 job plus you don't just train them with the training activities (like doing the washing up/ cooking a meal together/ teaching them how to buy things at the supermarket) but they also watch you and how you live your life. Super exhausting and 0% chance of success because you'll trip up somewhere. Like get mad and say something dumb. So I have mad respect for God who makes us unruly and ungrateful kids his own and trains us up using the infinite resources he has in this entire world - so cool that I can trust that God is using everything today, the weather, the animals, the good and the bad to mould me to follow the way of Jesus more - it will keep me safe. 

Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go,
And when he is old he will not depart from it.

The Christian life is really so much more about dying than I ever thought. Dying to bring forth new life - I remember thinking that this time last year, when I was visiting Glau and Tobi in Bremen and looking at her huge belly...knowing that the life inside her had also given her diabetes. He giveth and giveth and giveth again and so will I. 

James 1:27 Religion that is pure and undefiled before God the Father is this: to care for the orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world. 

Two resolutions:

- write down people's prayer points in my prayer mate app so I don't lose them

- continually seek God's will for my life and let go of my own dreams

- take time off for random creative things (like making my shell jewellery to give away!)

It would be cool if 2018 brought

- an exhibition to raise awareness about mental health

- fundraising for a scholarship to support the above and remember YNC's mental health history, named after Dennis

- the resurrection and expansion of the board games party! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvNfjLmlviI