It’s raining.
Will this always be grandma’s house?
No it won’t.
Just like the seasons, the seasons come and go
The flowers, plants,
they
come and go.
They wither, they die, new buds spring forth.
Can’t hold on to this house, or to
Grandma to come back to this house.
She’s in a better house, she’s in God’s house,
she’s in the Father’s house.
When the Lord comes back he will call us all together;
the dead in Christ will rise first
and we will all meet him in the air
so we will all be with the Lord forever
and we will all be in the Father’s house worshiping together
forever and ever.
We won’t need this house,
Grandma’s house
Because there was sorrow that came along with the joy as
well
It was so often a sanctuary but it also really wasn’t.
It could never keep out
it could never truly keep out
all the problems, everything outside
It wasn’t a solution, it was a gift
and now it’s been taken back
to the giver of all gifts.
LORD thank you for Grandma,
thank you for giving her to us
thank you that we were so blessed;
she was a grandma we could always go to for hugs and hot
water bottles and just nice things just love and guidance and funny things as
well
thank you that she shared her life with us
and she cared for us
Though walking into every room, it feels like
She might still be here
Where is she?
Why is she not sitting in her armchair?
Why
She’s not here.
Mary, Mary
Why are you crying?
He is not here, he is risen.
He is risen!
Lord you have not left us orphans,
And because you live we will live also.
And beause you live grandma will live also
And we will see her again.
Thank you
That you don’t leave us orphans
You leave us with your word
That the Holy Spirit helped the apostles to write
and now the Holy Spirit helps us to see and understand
and to know you
But the spirit blows where it wills and we don’t see it,
We don’t know where it goes…
I pray that you will blow the spirit into this family
We need you
We need you
And I know there’s so much work to be done,
your work LORD;
Please keep me faithful to speaking your truth in love into
C's life, R's life
What am I doing here crying?
Why am I wasting time for crying over people whose eternal
salvation is secured?
So many still don’t know you.
And they’ll never see grandma again unless they do
LORD I pray that you will help me fix my eyes on the
kingdom.
On the comfort and the joy of the kingdom
But also of the work of the kingdom.
I pray that you’ll help me put my faith in you – that you
are working in this world still, you haven’t left us
You haven’t just left us to fall apart.
That even in all the problems and all the pain you are
calling your people to yourself LORD.
And I pray that I would learn LORD, to be bolder to say the
words even to people like who I feel
will think I’m crazy and yeah will bar me from or something
but LORD, needs to hear you too, ’s part of our family too and we love . Help me to love more.
Thank you LORD for showing me to move forward
Standing on the shoulders of spiritual giants who have given
their lives to people
To your people
To grow us
And LORD I pray now that I won’t cling on to wanting them
back
But I will be a disciple who makes disciples –
that I would be a true disciple, so that their work would
not be in vain.
I pray these things
And I ask for LORD just for extra wisdom and sensitivity,
and knowledge of how to love doing your work and be able to be real and soft
and gentle at the same time. Not try and shut out my own emotions for fear that
they’ll overpower me. And make me fruitless/useless in your ministry. You’ve
given us all we need for life and godliness and I pray that I would increase in
all virtue, knowledge, self-control, steadfastness, godliness,
brotherly-affection and love.
//
I was just thinking about John 11:35 when
Jesus wept at the death of Lazarus. And I rmb at SOAS CU we talked about how this shows us
Jesus deep love for his peoples, anguish at the broken world...But I also just
realised that the fact that this is recorded for us means that Jesus didn't
hide away and cry. He wasn't ashamed of showing how wrong he felt the world to
be...just thinking of this en route back to London from my grandmas village n
thinking about how pretending that we don't feel any of the pain in the world
just because we have a sure hope in the gospel securing for us a place in God's
future glorious kingdom isn't the pattern Jesus set for us :) The brokenness of
a sinful world is real and it hurts because God didn't make the world to be this
way. It also hurts to see those we love try so hard to save themselves but
reject the only true light. But there is work to be done. And so we press on to
be faithful to the upward call of Christ to labor in his harvest fields, to
bring his elect into his kingdom.
