thank you kay redfield jamison, marcia inhorn and arthur kleinman // he said she said

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPxrZg9XeF0

I really like Jon Foreman's music because it's just so real. 

Today I had a chat with Arthur Kleinman, he is the kindest yet wise and sharpest "old" scholar I know. I so grateful to God - he is really sending me all his angels in this time of senselessness. 

He gave me good advice. 
1) Avoid being alone he said
2) Wake up at 6.30 he said
3) Do a 30-45 minutes "energy burner" in the morning (e.g. yoga/ tai chi/ lift weights whatever) It just has to be systematic. I like morning walks and sometimes jogs and yoga!
4) Keep a regular, good diet. Sit down with a nutritionist and work out a systematic diet.
5) Read an unquiet mind (I'd already read it); read Kay Jamison's biography of Robert Lowell, he had manic depression disorder too. I am "genetically programmed to be creative", he said
6) read a chapter by William James in his Principles of Psychology, just the chapter on habits; why habits are crucial
7) Stay on lithium. Stay on it. And go for regular blood tests.

Writing point 7 just now cut my heart a bit. I still don't understand God why. Why? But I trust you. And I trust my doctor. Thank you - for giving me all the people I need for the moment. And for the future - it scares me. But I know you will be with me always. I will be ok! 

2 songs I'm listening to right now,

I'm holding on to you
And I won't let go
You're the one that I can't loose
And I won't let go
You're the only thing that's true
In this whole world of black eyed blues
And disillusioned points of view
And I won't let go
The pain feels like a knife
But I'm not giving up on life

and 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrSJwO5dJXg 

I will only sing your praise. 

Professor Kleinman also kindly advised me to "take a reasonable period of time (4-6 weeks) to think about what the next step in your life will be" 
And while I'm doing that to think about 
/ friends / 
stable relationship. 

Don't live in a fantasy world
Discipline my thoughts
Don't invalid myself.

whispers 欧服 summer

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our love is like a song we can't forget it/ thank you for saving me/ over and over again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaTYbUugDYU

Joni's desiringGod article  = real worlds of wisdom

haha "worlds of wisdom"
 i meant words of wisdom, but that works too...actually probably makes more sense metaphorically ;)

She needs to be taken literally by my generation...ah the folly of youth. foolish foolish foolish young people!

someone needs her book...who could it be? R.

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/beware-of-running-too-hard

resurrection letters...they make me cry.